Sad/happy

I am stressed. About so many things. Too many things. I feel like I am losing control of my life but I don't know how to get that control back. Yesterday was bad. Ian got home from work and I went for a run. And then I crawled in my bed and layed there until all of the kids were in bed. Ian took care of dinner and everything else. He also tried to keep Evan out of the room because he knew of the state I was in. I like being married to a man who not only knows me, but takes care of things when I can't. And doesn't complain about it.

After my pity party, I got up to watch Castle with Ian and Xander. Evan got out of bed and layed on my lap. I felt better. I thought of ways to be more positive. Things I could do to be happy. But today I still feel overwhelmed. I want to snap out of it. I have so many things to be happy about and thankful for so what the heck is my problem? Actually, don't answer that.

In an attempt to lift my spirit, I am making a happy list. Here is what I am happy about today:

1. Jimmy Eat World's new album Invented came out

2. Ian has next week off

3. Evan's love for Buzz. He carries Buzz around like a baby doll. It makes me smile.

4. Kit kat bars and Dr. Pepper

5. Running

6. Max is finally getting his front tooth in! Although his other front tooth is still a baby tooth!?!

7. Pres. Monson's General Relief Society talk. Seriously awesome.

What do you do to pull you out of your funk? Advice, please.

Football Fever

Football season is in full swing at the Trezise house. It began a few weeks ago when Ian and Xander attended a Fantasy Football League party. I thought it would be a fun thing for them to do together. Little did I know that football would spread like the plague in this house. Now Xander, Ben & Max have their own Fantasy Football League.

Sundays are no longer quiet here. There is lots of cheering. And lots of groans. Ian is constantly checking his phone for point updates. All of this is foreign to me. I like that the boys are doing something together but it's starting to get a little annoying (just a little)(or maybe a lot).

Ben has minature helmets for every team in the NFL. One night Max and Ian spent the evening finding action figures that would go with the helmets. Evan helped a little too. They were so proud of the end result.

Ben and Max are playing flag football. Saturday was their first games. Max scored a touchdown and his team won! Ben got to be quarterback and his team won! The boys had such a great time.

I really enjoy football when it's my boys playing :)

P.S. don't expect regular blogs from me. my life can't handle it right now.

Brandon Flowers Performs "Magdalena"

Flamingo came out this week. I woke up. Got dressed. Took the boys to school and went and bought the album. Because that's the kind of fan that I am. To say music makes me happy is a gross understatement. And to say that I love Brandon Flowers is an even grosser understatement. Like super grosser.

I love the album. It's different than any Killers album. Ian and I were discussing it and we think this album has more 60 & 70's influence - like Dire Straits, Bob Dylan, Johnny Cash and even Elvis. The Killers are more rock and roll and Brandon Flowers as a solo artist seems more mellow. Most of the songs are stories and I love that. I love him. Seriously.

You can watch his interview on Jimmy Kimmel on youtube. He talks about his influences (The Smiths, The Cure) and about his love for Las Vegas. His album seems like an ode to Las Vegas.

This album and Gusters new song make me so happy. Jimmy Eat World's new album comes out next week. There is something about listening to a really great song that makes me emotional - happy, sad, introspective. That's what great art does. You can quote me on that.

Also, as much as I LOVE Brandon, I'm not loving his outfit. Ian thinks he got it at a thrift shop in Apache Junction. I think Brandon needs a new stylist.

Pop-eyed

There is so much love inside me for this boy. We both had rough weeks this week. We always do when my mom is out of town. Friday was a doozy. Evan had a horrible day - so horrible that Xander missed school in the morning to be with him (don't judge me - I felt like I didn't have anyone I could call*) and I missed work in the afternoon to stay with him because he was hysterical when I tried to drop him off at his play date. It stunk, but it reminded me that my kids need to be my #1 priority.

One of my favorite things that Evan does is what we like to call his "pop-eye". I may have written about this before, I don't remember. When he is nervous, embarrassed, tired, feeling silly...really whenever - he likes to make this face:

You can tell in the above picture he's feeling silly - but most of the time he does it when he is feeling sad or shy - like if he closes the one eye no one will be able to see him. Sometimes it breaks my heart. And sometimes I wish I could close one eye and no one would be able to see me. I totally understand it.

I love his face in this picture. He is showing me he's happy - because sometimes when Evan is especially whiny I make him open his mouth wide so he can cough out all of the grumpies inside. He's showing me that there are no grumpies :).

Even after the 513 temper tantrums he threw this week, I still think that Evan is awesome. And I'm so lucky to be his mom.

*side note: Actually I probably could've called Tiffany or Trina but that didn't occur to me until later

of babies and boys

The other day Ben and Max tried to talk me into having another baby. When I explained that babies cost a lot of money - they both offered to help me pay for a baby.

When I talked about how much time and energy a baby requires, both Ben and Max offered to help with the baby. Ben even said he'd change diapers :).

Finally when I told Ben he'd have to share a room he relented. "I guess we don't need a baby," he said. Max didn't give up that easily - he pestered me all afternoon about it.

Although Ben is an awesome big brother (and an awesome cousin) and Max is becoming more tolerant of Evan...no way could I have another baby. Emotionally and mentally there is no way I could handle another child right now. But on top of that, I have prayed extensively about this issue - and I feel good about the size of our family.

Watching the boys with Ruby at the cabin, almost made me change my mind.

Almost.

*on a side note: the other day I was looking on Facebook at pictures of my newest nephew (he lives far away in Scotland). Evan was sitting on my lap and exclaimed, "Oh! Can we buy that?" I guess he wants a baby too.

Trip to the Lodge

Late Friday night we traveled up to the Lodge. Saturday morning Ian took Xander fishing (they caught 17 fish) while Trina and I went to Blossom and then on to Walmart. I love Trina like a sister.

Addy giving her mom some flowers.

Darrel took the kids on a Ranger ride to the park while we were gone. Evan climbed to the top of the monkey bars and then asked, "How do I get down from here?"

When we got back the kids became obsessed with catching things. First, they caught lizards. Max kept his for a long time - he's desperate for a pet. We finally talked him into letting it go.

Ben & his lizard.

After dinner we celebrated Darrel's birthday with firecrackers and a cake. I didn't get any pictures of the firecrackers because I fell asleep on the couch during that part - but I did get some cake pictures.

Ruby loves cake. I love Ruby. Ian kept making fun of me because I took so many pictures of her. He said I should publish a book and call it my "Ruby period." Ha, ha.


Ro and Evan hung out the whole time. They fought bad guys, tried to catch bunnies and lizards, played wiffle ball. They are becoming the best of friends. I overheard Ro say, "Evan, we are having so much fun." Evan replied, "I always have fun."

Ian and Darrel are also pretty good friends. Ian made a point to agree with everything Darrel said this weekend since it was Darrel's birthday. Those two together crack me up.


Max and Ben chasing a bunny.

The next day we played a whole lot of wiffle ball. The big people even played. Except for me. I just ate and read the whole day. I'm not kidding.

How can anyone resist her adorable face? I'm proud to say that she loves me almost as much as I love her.

Xander had some awesome hits.

I want to live at the Lodge.

I'm not kidding.